can a U graded maths student score at least a c6 for her o levels this time?

don't even need to think..the ans i no!..yeah..N-O NO!

very stress..yes that stupid feeling coming back again..
i done alot of physics and maths paper but i still think that i cant do it.
i encourage pple to think more positively but i cant do it for myself.

wad is this?stupid canada exams!i rather its a singing competition.

i cant imagine if i fail,wad am i gona do?
probably hanging ard the streets and not going home?
its not becoz of those beatings or scoldings..
its that i dun wan my parents to be sad.
imagine i go home wif my sucky results they look at my sad face..they sure know wad i've acheieved..
they sure haf a look of "disappoinment"i would rather they nag at me.
i dun like that look..it gif me that they aldy gif up hope on me.
and if i really fail..i will waste their money on the books on the fees and all..
if i fail..the world will look down even more on me.

i juz cant think of some more positive ways..
i stil rmb last yr..i saw adeline's report book all the grades were like wow!omg..
i feel very stupid and ashamed of myself.
im even older than her and i cant score better?

im juz a stupid bucket of shit.
waiting to be thrown into the "long-kang"


--sickening canada exams--

i love my boy;
9:13 AM

did some revision on carol's big stack of physics.it was really disgusting.
and read some idioms juz now.hope it can really help me in my english.

dooms days r coming
and i haf not been having some forty-winks for the past 2 months..
i hate this kind of life.
its not i dun wan to haf
its i dun wan to bring myself to haf.i will coz me to slack the whole day.

well,anyway this new guy on the block came rocking by.ha..jy..=p

gota mug tml again..
blah
boring entry!
those hu read it can juz go slp.ha!

i love my boy;
10:13 AM

my pretty lady!AYUMI!listen to carols now!its very nice!
didnt study well for this 2 wks..really slack and its like onli 1 wk away.

i hate those pple go and remix those nice songs..
like for example the cd name "2004 best asian music"
y muz they add techno music behind?
yuck.

i love my boy;
9:00 AM

as my sister was searching to add her fav "maia lee" on friendster..
there's this account..(seems its the real one)
its's maia wif a guy named JJ LIN JUN JIE is standing beside her..they like standing very close.and the pix seems very very recent!
its in a pool bar..can c some pool tables behind them.

oh?!is maia a fren of jj?haha..= =++
did wan to post it up here..lazy..if u wan to c..go search "maia lee" on frenster and u will c the pix..its the displaying one.

i love my boy;
12:10 AM

today sux
no jj
aiya
i learnt that "luck will not ALWAYS be wif us."
but its confirm that he is flying off today
as he,the man himself said.
ah.nevermind.i'll get to c him again.=)

i love my boy;
8:20 PM

A WONDERFUL DAY!!

wow..todae went to fetch jj at the airport..the flight wasnt revealed to anione..i try to get news from those tw fans..they said he is coming back by today's morn..
so yeah went there quite early and i bought a "liang teh" for him..the color was disgusting..yellow..haha

so beak came and we waited..was really shocked that there's no one.

we stand near the glass and trying to spot him..and a very very normal guy wif orange tee and a blue jacket walk out..very ah beng-ish.then we said :"AH~shi la shi la shi jj~"ahaha.we wave to him from the outside..yes he wave back..trying to act cool..then i think he holding a very small paper bag..duno wads inside haha maybe for his mama..then he took his langguage..it looks really lok kok!

we turn ard and saw 2 hai die gals waiting for him (one of them is f4 fan!!i rmb her!!)yeah then he came out i quickly went over and gif him my liang teh..i said na~liang teh..he very stupid lor he said huh?Wad?then i repeated it again..he still hm...okok then he take the bottle and c c look look..haha~= =++so i sae "can we like HE ZHAO"then he said oo ok..i like acting very pathetic i ask the hai die gal pls.....she sae ok once.
yeah so we TOOK foto!!!!!haha hm..okok lac lac..yeah then we followed him to the door and as he is waiting for the car i ask him when is he going back and ask him to drink my liang teh...he said ok.so he went in the car and.....he open my liang teh!!!he drink it!!!!first time in my life..my idol appreciate wad i give lor..and despite the er xin yellowish color he drink it!!HAHAHAH!!so nice!!he is juz so gentle haha then we wave and bide and he keep nodding his head lk trying to act cute...haha but he is..=X

well..a very nice dae!very high..
the pix i will post it in my album sooner or later..coz my fren haven upload it yetz..but yes i look very ugly in the pix..but anyway i did it!hahahaha!!

now aiming for the nx target to he zhao:linda,ayumi

haha but i lazy go fetch linda..=P

yay!!!!!happppyy!!

i love my boy;
1:04 AM

today went to sch to haf pracs..

yeah i was staring at the paper for the first 5 mins..haha my mind totally went BLANK but its was ok..i started out wif the physics first..seekee was sitting infront of me..i saw her doing bio first..ok nvm i started..first i hang the pumbline at the wrong place ahhaa!!after i knew it was the wrong position i feel abit embarassed..ahahaha!!altho no one is looking at me = =++

yeah then for the graph i draw wrong..i KNEW it was wrong but i cant think of a way to change it.so jiang cuo jiu cuo..hai..

then for the bio i did it smoothly but for the blur blur me i forget to add water into the benedict's test..so heat and add water and heat again haha!!for the last part..i read the qn wrongly i didnt heat the benedict's test haha but after that i saw everyone's heating it so yeah haha i do that oso..suddenly i saw this gal her benedict's solution is black.i was worried taht i did the wrong thing..so after the test i quickly ask englee(the smartest one)she told me that mine is the right way to do.

hai ok i took bus to go ade's house but i missed the stop so i took cab to her house and yeah i watched alot of JJ~~yuan lai he only afraid of those small sized tomato..those tomato on spagetti he can eat..haha (no wonder the fc pres noe)she tested me that qn last time.= =++
sorry ade i make u slack todae..haha..

when i go home i took this bus "24" i put coins inside..coz my ezlink no money..the stupid bastard driver scold me..(i mean putting coins r correct mah)he ask me to show my bus pass..(huh?wad?show bus pass for?)put coins can le mahh..wad the *doot*....bastard him..then on the way he keep scolding cursing swearing..i duno wads wrong wif him...sick..

hai tml then study la..todae no mood..yeah..
hope to c jj this wk~~
that stupid hai die person keep walking in and out of the office..juz cant get her to the fone.haha~nvm i'll try tml!hope to noe his schedule!YA~

i love my boy;
4:28 AM

wow!!!jj!!such a talented guy..!!HAHAHA!!

u noe wad?!he is nominated into 4 awards in a china award ceremony..and guess wad?!?!he won all 4 away!!AHAHAH!!juz love hiM!!!

anyway i dreamt of him this morn..we were at this concert hall and i got to get on stage to ans a qn and get a prize from him..after the whole thing ended i was sitting down on the stage jj was beside me and i dragged him down to really sit beside me..haha and i ask him to look at qingpei's direction coz she was trying to help us "he zhao" but it wasnt cheng gong coz alot of pple walking pass..in the end i took the cam and "zi pai" myself then i found out that i was wearing my specs and didnt put on make up!!so ugly!!and i told him that i got to go and nid to change for his gathering later..he is so blur and dun even noe there's a gathering later on.and suddenly he disappeared..

so as i went home..i saw this ah pek holding newspaper and i saw the headlines "pan wei bo si le!!"omg i was so shocked and i went home to tell mandy immediately~she said she knew it.and i kept going ard telling pple that wilber's dead..but telling myself that it wasnt tru..i tot its real..scare me..haha and i woke up from my dream.

hai...so bored got to mug again~..monday is practicals!

i love my boy;
11:25 AM

the world isnt that beatiful
i think the world i cunning..
everyone betray u..even ur own frens..
its so dangerous to live ard the backstabbing..critism and all..

i tot i've aldy leave those backstabbing daes?
i hate to do that but i cant
its not that i wan to
its becoz pple backstab u and left behind a big scar before u can even stop their knieves from going in~

i wonder hu is tru in the world..

to me there's no heaven..eevrywhere is fear..comparisons..backstabs..liars..hypocrites..

and not only this..

when u make new frens if u tok too much pple will sae u r kpo..and ask u to sha dup or tok lesser..and if u r quiet pple will sae u r a boring person..or when u tok very little pple will sae that u r a book..so wad?tok or zip our mouth?

life is stress..not only the work u do..its becoz those backstabbers..juz those bunch of pple..i dun wan to live in this..the cycle repeats..even u get out..soemone will juz drag u in again..make it a cycle...u think wad?geo?or science?the life cycle?the poverty cycle?

im not a stress reliver ok me myself is stressed too juz that i dun express it out in the open..i oso cry alone..no one noe..and start to backstab me...

im not trying to state hu or trying to shoot or throw the arrow at hu but juz feel that its very dangerous..

---only listening to jj songs can relieve stress..so if u wan then listen to that..dun use me...---i noe jj is not realistic..and so wad if i juz wan to make him realistic?..and morever he make me more keen to studies and work harder..

i love my boy;
8:38 AM

im a gal w/o luck..

yes yesterdae was the auto session...i reached the at 7am lor..and like i was the FIRST one..i was oso shocked..those securities still sae i stupid leh..= =++

ok nvm he came at 2.30..before that was the small grp of guys from hai die training cls singing..alot like the jun xiang..he very skinny then can c he very jing zhang..when rehersing he kept walking here and there on the stage...haha and saw xue gao..noel took foto wif him hahahahaha noel~~~hahahaha i kept teasing her abt him..haha..ok let's sae jj's part..

he came and he look SOOOO cute!!he sang di er tian tang..dou jiang you tiao..and some old songs..and he played guitar wif a guy..that guy sux..hahahaha..then there was this small game w those hu called in 933..3 gals one guy..those gals sang okok la..one of them still requested for *qing1 chang4*= =++ er xin...stop being grossed..they sux lor..the guy sang well but the last part for the jia ying..he still use all this energy to squeezed out the voice to sing..haha!!i used lydia's cam to captured some pix but low batt!!hai
ok now i got up stage i told him abt the cushion i ask him to put behind his back he didnt understand he said okok and he put it on the floor = =++ silly guy.dun understand chinese ar..(yea)hahahhaa!

and i joined the fc lor..becoz of the gathering benefit...and aniwae after the autop session me and noel went to eat at the food court.xue gao went there oso..hahaha!!he kept walking here and there..purposely one lor...

nvm ok now is the gathering..wa the place very relaxing.but noisy... x box..im a x box idiot..haha!jj came..(he nv change)he went into a small room the practice like one hour inside lor..i waited outside the small room and didnt join the others..he came out and saw me so yeah shake hands wif him lor..the yan shen he gif me was very...erm....i duno how to describe..yeah then the gathering start..he speaks ENGLISH = =++ becoz there's this jap gal there..and his english was like slang slang slang..very slang!i cant stand it!!then he choose some members to play games.he very funny play until very gan jiong..and diulian oso..he lost to 2 gals..hahaha!!and a guy oso i think.then when he lost he bu fu shu then the lady said the game was to hit those cars wif blue arrows then he very angry haha then said "y didnt u tell me earlier?!"hahahaha!!silly..and one thing i haf to sae is he is fatter le!HAHAHA!the arms..flabby hahhaa..dotz...stop eating alot la!

yeah the gathering oso got q&a session..those infront fans were sitting then we behind ones standing up then there's one part when jj ans qn he po ying..hahaha!!the qn is "wad will u do when u come back to singapore" then said "when is the dae..then the dae po ying!HAHAHA!!me and my frens luff..hahaa i think its obvious hahaha!!he like noe it hahaaha..yeah the whole ans is "in the dae..im working so in the nite i will go out wif my frens and family"hahaha!!i think its very funny
then when he choose members to play the games wif him..none of the 3 of us wan..so we like "not me not me"while others is "me me me"hahaha..every member has a number so he juz call out some numbers..then my fren's is 35 and 37 im 32..so when he said thirty........6..ahahaha then my fren was like phewwwww..then jj saw hahaha he turned and look at us..lol!!diulian!!sometimes tru the gathering i saw him "miao-ing" our direction..and another qn is a fan ask him"do u really like hebe?"he explained that he told the host that he prefers s.h.e if really haf to choose,he prefers hebe..not as in he really like hebe..he didnt wan to elabarate more..= =+ then alot of them cheer before he ans then i cheer oso..he saw lor..he was looking my direction..diulian again..haha and when he lost the game i luff very loud :X ahaha!!then he said micheal jackson was his ou xiang.then i said "o his nian dai de!"quite loud oso..hahhaha!!

ok then there's this small auto session at the gathering.i told him im xiao ding dang..hahaha my "nick" the first time he didnt hear it he said huh?shen me?very gentle leh..omg..the voice..hahaha then i repeated again..he's so gentled compared to energy.hahaha :X energy will sae HUH!!!shen me!??!they speak very loud..hahaha..

and todae actually wanted to send him off..then there's 2 plane one is china airlines at t1 then another one is sia at t2 then we go for the china airlines we waited very very long..from like 7am to 8.15am..until gate close..hai dun haf..then we went to t2 but that time was too late i think he went in aldy..hai...bad luck la me..nvm la he's coming back again on 21..haha but i think onli go fetch him la..i nid to mug le!!get mugging now.....hai....

i love my boy;
7:30 PM

NO FATE NO FATE JUZ NO FATE!!

bloody hell jj fc..hate them

ok this is wad happen

the jjfcc president noe abt jj's fligth arrival todae.
she didnt wan to sae it at the forum she sae this is nto fair for the fc members.she sae she will onli sms those fc members abt the time for the plane.

wad the hell..cant she juz post it at the forum?i mean everyone likes jj can go there together no matter u r the fc pple or not.

right?

y always those fc president r so selfish.

i hate it!!

juz now i call up hai die and ask at 6pm..and the person sae he is coming at 6.30
oh man!its like so near the time where got time for me to get dress and all!!

bloody hell la!juz no fate...everytime lk that one..not the first time..
1st is f4 then is vanness then is energy then now this jj~

idiot!!im damn angry!i onli can see him on sunday!!ARGH!

y muz it be so unfair!!

i love my boy;
3:34 AM